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[Jan. 27th, 2008|09:19 am]

Ed and Hank

Still workin' it on out...

(That fella who was Ennis... part two)

Note: Hank didn't know there was going to be a part two, but here it is... such as it is... Also, the heartfelt comments from the last post were very much appreciated and would have been answered sooner, but Hank had this on his mind. (And maybe it's kinda hard to figure out what to say, because this isn't something Hank ever wanted, or expected, he and Ed to be talking about.)  Disclaimer: Hank told their story to Annie Proulx. Jack and Ennis are all hers. Ed and Hank belong only to each other.

Part 1, That fella who was Ennis... is here:

Everything else is here:

Still workin' it on out...

"So's... I guess this is it, Hank... Ya finally lost yer mind..."

"Think maybe I have at tha'."

"Do ya miss it?"

"Not as much as ya'd think."

"'Xactly how many times have ya played tha' song...?"

"However many times I played it already... plus... hold on a second...


...plus this time. So far, anyways..."

"How come ya keep playin' it over 'n over again...?"

"If'n I had an answer ta that I wouldn' be agreein' with ya that I lost my mind."

"Least-wise ya picked a purty song ta lose yer mind to."

"Is real purty... Ain't it...?"

"Yep. 'N tha' man's got his self a real soothin' voice."

"Looked the song up... Said he wrote it when he were in Spain 'n missin' home... Heard it this mornin' in the barn on that oldies station... 'n it jus got under 'm skin fer some reason... So's I found it on YouTube..."

"Yeah... Some dumbass keeps changin' the radio station from country ta oldies... Ya wouldn' happen ta know who tha'd be, wouldya...? Irritates the horses ta no end."

"The horses get irritated, huh...?"


"Mus' be Bill."

"Ain't Bill. He likes country music... same as me 'n the horses do."

"You 'n Bill... I swear... Hate ta think a the love triangle we'd have on our hands if'n he were queer too."

"Wouldn' never work... Bill 'n me are too much alike."

"You've considered it, huh...?"



"So's... I s'pose ya wanna go ta Carolina now?"

"Don' know hardly nothin' 'bout Carolina... North or South... 'Course I wouldn' mind findin' out... Hear Charleston's s'posed ta be real purty... Pro'bly got swamps somewheres too... I ain't never seen a swamp..."

"Ya wanna see a swamp, huh...?"

"Wouldn' you...?"

"Cain't say as I ever thought 'bout it one way or 'nother... But... I guess if'n I found m'self standin' in the middle a one I'd take a look 'round..."

"Yeah... It'd prob'bly be a real good idea ta keep yer eyes open... what with all them alligators 'n pythons 'n piranhas 'n whatnot..."

"You sure tha' particular swamp's in Carolina...?"

"Could be."

"Maybe I wouldn' wanna see no swamp after all."



"I dunno... Listenin' ta this song over 'n over... Think maybe it's still got somethin' ta do with Heath Ledger passin' away..."

"Think I liked it better when you were twistin' 'n shoutin'."

"Guess I didn' quite work it all out yet... I'm not so's mad no more... But it's still real sad... readin' 'bout his family comin' ta take him home the other day... 'n what they said 'bout him... 'n what his sister said... 'bout how he was so many things ta so many folks... but ta her he'd always jus' be her l'il brother... Shit... 'S hard ta take..."

"Sure is."

"'N it sure seems ta be affectin' a whole lotta folks tha' didn' know him... I saw a video clip a Daniel Day Lewis... Ya know... the actor..."

"Yeah... I know who he is..."

"Saw it on tha' HuffingtonPost.com... but it were from the Oprah show... He'd just heard 'bout wha' happened 'fore the interview started 'n he started ta break up some durin' it... 'n he didn' even know Heath Ledger neither... Guess with him bein' a real good actor too he prob'bly felt like he'd lost a kindred spirit... or whatever ya call it... 'N like the rest a us... I guess he jus' knew the world lost a real rare person... someone it were better off havin' in it... 'n someone that left it a better place than it were before."

"True 'nough."

"'N I think some a them folks on tha' site I post our story on were 'fraid tha' they'd lose Ennis... But they didn'. They won't never lose Ennis. No more 'n they could ever lose Jack. Not really. Or Heath. It's true... wha' folks have been sayin'... Ya don' never lose someone if'n they're in yer heart..."

"Guess it's kinda like when folks ya love move far 'way from ya... Like Iris... Don' get ta see her much... Not nearly 'nough... But she's always in my heart... So she never seems tha' far 'way..."

"Ya ever tell her tha'...?"

"Think she knows..."

"'Course she knows... But you should still tell her."

"Yeah... I should."

"'N... I dunno, Ed... He was Ennis 'n Ennis is you... Kinda anyways... So's... Jeez... don' make no sense... but it makes it even harder fer me somehow..."

"Makes ya think 'bout me kickin' the bucket, huh...?"

"Ain't 'xactly how I woulda put it..."

"Just hope I can count on watchin' you 'n Bill twistin' 'n shoutin' after I do..."

"How 'bout we just agree ta kick tha' there bucket at the same time? Leave all the twistin' 'n shoutin' ta Bill."

"Fine with me."

"How's forty-seven years from next Saturday look fer you?"

"I'm busy."

"Ya are, huh...?"

"Yep. Ya gotta give a fella a l'il more notice fer a Saturday... Me 'n Bill are goin' out ta dinner 'n a movie tha' nigh'."

"Figures ya wouldn' invite me."

"Ya know wha' they say 'bout three bein' a crowd 'n all..."

"Speakin' a movies... Ya do know that I'm gonna wanna watch tha' there movie with ya now... dontcha...?"

"Figured as much."

"Lettin' ya off the hook fer now though... 'Cause I don' think 'm up fer watchin' it... not fer a while anyways..."

"So's... Is tryin' ta go ta Carolina in yer mind makin' ya feel any better, Hank...? Or are ya just endin' up wanderin' 'round lost in there?"

"Think it made me feel worse at first... But then it started makin' me feel better..."

"After 'bout the billionth time, huh...?"

"Yeah... Give or take a time or two..."

"So's... You ever plannin' on comin' back...?"

"Couldn' never stay 'way from you fer long, Ed..."

"Well... Lemme know when ya are... So's I can pick ya up at the bus station."

"Thanks, but if'n it's all the same ta you, I think I'll fly back... Maybe I'll take that SST... Always wanted ta fly on tha'..."

"Don' think them kinda planes are still flyin'..."

"They are in my mind."

"Hey... Maybe you could jus' flap yer arms 'n fly there 'n back under yer own power...? Tha' way I won't hafta pick ya up at the airport."

"Got a better idea... How 'bout you jus' come along with me ta Carolina...?"

"Don' know 'bout tha'... Somebody's gotta stay here 'n take care a this place..."

"C'mon, Ed... I'd really like the company... How 'bout we jus' go overnigh'...?"

"Who's gonna take care a Hankthedog 'n Edthedog?"

"We could take 'em with us... They ain't had no vacation since they got here..."

"Ev'ry day's a vacation fer them."

"I don' know 'bout tha'... Doin' nothin' can be real hard work..."

"You oughta know."

"Ya know I set that one up fer ya, dontcha...?"

"Yep... 'N I ain't one ta look a gift horse in the mouth."

"There's an idea... How 'bout we take the horses, too...?"

"Migh' be nice... They got places ta ride horses in Carolina...?"

"Sure do... Least-wise in the Carolina in my mind."

"Exactly how many folks are you invitin' on this trip...? Ain't yer mind gonna get a migh' crowded...?"

"Nah... There's plenty a room..."

"Settin' me up again, huh...?"

"I enjoy bein' the straight man ev'ery now 'n again... So ta speak, anyways..."

"I dunno, Hank... Maybe we'd better go ta Carolina in my mind..."

"Oh yeah... Tha'd be a lot better..."

"Wha's wrong with tha'...?"

"Don' think I didn' notice tha' ya snuck Bill in along with them cattle too..."

"Don' know whatcher talkin' 'bout..."

"Okay... How 'bout this, Ed...?"

"Tha's real nice... But where the hell are the dogs...?"

"Mus' be out on the town with them two bathin' beauties they met..."

"Jeez, Hank... Ya know I cain't stand it when folks dress up animals."

"Me neither. Jus' couldn' resist irritatin' you."


"Hey... There's the dogs... they're jus' laggin' behind some... like usual..."

"Tha's better."

"So's it's settled then... We're all goin' ta Carolina."

"Thing is, Hank... I think we're already there..."

"Yeah, Ed... I guess we are... 'N thanks be fer tha'..."

"Now... How 'bout I send ya somewheres else fer a l'il while...?"

"Ya know I like ta travel... Where ya got in mind...?"

"Why dontcha close yer eyes 'n I'll s'prise ya...?"

"D'ya think I oughta fasten my seatbelt...?"

"I'll be glad ta take care a yer belt fer ya... but I was thinkin' more along the lines a unfastenin' it..."

"Love ya, dumbass..."

"Love you too, dumbass..."


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[User Picture]From: myeyesaintblue
2008-01-27 06:33 pm (UTC)
Here's the link to the Daniel Day Lewis video clip, if you'd like to see it:


P.S. All pictures were lifted off the internet and represent the closest approximation to Carolina as seen in Hank (and Ed's) mind that he could find.
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From: carol1943
2008-01-27 07:09 pm (UTC)
"'N I think some a them folks on tha' site I post our story on were 'fraid tha' they'd lose Ennis... But they didn'. They won't never lose Ennis. No more 'n they could ever lose Jack. Not really. Or Heath. It's true... wha' folks have been sayin'... Ya don' never lose someone if'n they're in yer heart... Don' matter if'n they've passed away or not... Hell... Don' even matter if'n they're real or not..."

Comforting words, and very true. Once people are in your heart you can't lose them.

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[User Picture]From: myeyesaintblue
2008-01-29 09:21 pm (UTC)
Hank does take comfort in that thought and he's glad you do do. Thanks.
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[User Picture]From: tmn1966
2008-01-27 07:29 pm (UTC)
These two are certainly a comfort. They're lucky to have each other and we're lucky that they share their words with us.

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[User Picture]From: myeyesaintblue
2008-01-29 09:22 pm (UTC)
Thanks. And Ed and Hank know they're lucky to have folks to share those words with.
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[User Picture]From: torry28
2008-01-27 07:53 pm (UTC)
Dear Blue, Ed and Hank,
Thank you for being here, you have no idea how much seeing you and listening to you has always meant to me and even more so now.
Memories will fade in time, its nature but the heart never forgets, as I would never forget you, and dearest Ed and Hank
as well as your other friends.
Thank you for being there for us for me.
The first picture, was it of the horse rescue last year?
I have watched the video of it several times and the music with it, I just cry and cry because I love animals so much.
It was the most stunning rescue effort I ever saw and the Horses so graceful even after what they had endured.
Thank you

Edited at 2008-01-27 07:54 pm (UTC)
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[User Picture]From: myeyesaintblue
2008-01-29 09:35 pm (UTC)
Thanks Torry, you have a wonderful way with words. I'm not sure if that picture was from a horse rescue. I really should make note of where I "lift" them from. You'd think I could find it again pretty easily, but I couldn't. Horses are such amazingly beautiful animals though. (If I find it later on, I'll let you know.)
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[User Picture]From: torry28
2008-01-29 10:21 pm (UTC)
Hi blue, after looking at it closely it is not, but if you are interested it was in 2006 when some women in the Netherlands rescued 200 horses who had been stranded on an island with no food. Miraculously only 7 died. It was one of most heartrending sight I ever saw. I don't know if the video is still available. I have a copy if you are interested.

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[User Picture]From: myeyesaintblue
2008-01-29 11:20 pm (UTC)
Thanks Torry, I did find the video online... it was amazing. How wonderful that they managed to rescue most of them. Thanks for letting me know.
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[User Picture]From: lalaynia
2008-01-27 08:22 pm (UTC)
'n he didn' even know Heath Ledger neither... Guess with him bein' a real good actor too he prob'bly felt like he'd lost a kindred spirit... or whatever ya call it... 'N like the rest a us... I guess he jus' knew the world lost a real rare person... someone it were better off havin' in it... 'n someone that left it a better place than it were before."

"True 'nough."


That says it perfectly. An' I'm gonna stow away and go to Carolina with all of you, if I'm welcome. If not, see you there anyway, Dumbass. ;D Hank isn't the only one with extra space in his mind.


Thanks for this.

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[User Picture]From: myeyesaintblue
2008-01-29 11:19 pm (UTC)
Of course you're welcome to come to Carolina with all of us. We'll meet you there, just tell us where...
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[User Picture]From: lalaynia
2008-01-30 03:01 am (UTC)
Well, that Jimmy Taylor got it right when he said, "Ain't no doubt in no one's mind that love's the finest thing around"
So whisper something soft and kind.

Tell Ed and Hank that signs that might be omens say I'm goin' ,goin', gone ...

Y'all know where.


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From: mazaher
2008-01-27 09:23 pm (UTC)
Beautiful. Hank's posts always have the effect of making my feet find solid ground, and moreover ground covered with green pasture grass. How to spend so much time with someone and still have so much to say. Things to do together. Nearness to desire and enjoy. Comfort to exchenge and to share. Being in turns strong enough to carry both, so that the other can afford being less strong for a while. Jogging on relaxed, like Taylor's singing voice or the buckskin on the second picture. Sometimes it rains, but there's home at journey's end. It's all right, somehow, we seem to have reason to hope.
In this one post, I love most the two dogs' picture, the last one. Like the Egyptian Anubis, like the black dog on the gate in Tarkovski's Stalker, like my sister's own little black witch-dog, they seem to simply, silently, friendly lead souls on to and from the other side of the world. Some dogs do that, they live on the edge, watching both sides, making us feel safe and cared for. I guess Edthedog and Hankthedog are like that too.
Thank you
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[User Picture]From: myeyesaintblue
2008-01-30 01:04 am (UTC)
Thanks. You do have a beautiful way with words. And I think Ed is generally kind of at a loss about what to do when Hank's feeling down, but he does the best he can to cheer him up, (which is pretty good). I love the picture of those dogs too and yeah, I do think Edthedog and Hankthedog are like that.
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From: mazaher
2008-01-30 05:44 pm (UTC)
"a beautiful way"...? Hank's writing is catching indeed =)
I think Ed is quite good at cheering Hank up. What's there to be done, after all, but being there in the right way? That being what makes the other feel that they are in that together and they'll come out of it together. BTW, dogs (and cats) do the same: they curl up with you and wait it out, putting in just a little purr or tail wag when needed...
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[User Picture]From: joetheone
2008-01-29 11:36 pm (UTC)

always on my mind

Yes, our friends and family and people we care about always come to mind in the face of death. I know that this place and the dave cullen forums were the first place I came to for solace when I heard about Heath. This has to be hard thinking on our loved ones. I think the two of you would love the Carolina's I recommend Asheville, Charleston, Raleigh/Durham the two states are just beautiful and unique. Well, I'm predjudice I love just about every place I have been in my life since well I seem to always find good people to talk with and memories that area always special. My Great uncle has a home in Charleston right on the harbor in one of thos historic homes that stood up to Hurricanes and so forth. Then my grandmother lived in Asheville for a very long time so spent time there also. Myrtle beach is too commercial for me but nice to see. Anyway so much in this world to visit and see and so many wonderful people to meet and know. So my goal is that each day I meet one new person even if it is to just hold a door open for them and wish them well for the day. I think if we all took these little things into account we would make the world better. Of course when someone cuts me off in traffic I always say thank you since they probably delayed me from getting a ticket or in an accident. I guess I'm just crazy. So anyway take what you can each day and live that sweet life. Yes, the ranch is in good hands with Bill and we cannot take the money with us so might as well spend it. Yes, it would be nice to leave Iris some but if she is like me I tell my parents all the time spend it and enjoy life. I would feel much better if they did that then save away and not do anything. And well they do enjoy themselves. Heck you may pass them in the Carolina's as they are planning on stopping there for two weeks in February and then in April on their way back from Florida. Have a great day and hug each other and remember you are special people. Joe PS do not make Martha Stewarts recipe for a mint julep it is not good. Try Paula ?? Oh my mind is slipping the great southern cook she makes a great one. joe
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[User Picture]From: myeyesaintblue
2008-01-30 01:15 am (UTC)

Re: always on my mind

The Carolina's sure do sound beautiful. Just the name itself is awful pretty. And whether they ever get to the Carolina's or not, Hank's going to make mint juleps this summer. (He looked it up online... It's Paula Deen, so he'll be able to find the recipe - Thanks.) I do love your attitude Joe... thanking people who cut you off in traffic figuring they're saving you from a ticket or an accident - That's the way to be. And if you're crazy, so should we all be.
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[User Picture]From: bbmgirlfan
2008-01-30 03:26 am (UTC)
That was nice! It's nice hanging out with them again for a bit.

I hope you continue in this vein for a while.

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